Today, Ezra (5): sidling up to Araela(8) on the couch, frowning slightly, with a melancholic tone: "Can I be with you?"
Araela, shrugging, slightly aloof: "Sure. I'm reading."
Ezra, sadly: "Well~ I'm feeling worried that you not forgived me yet?"
Araela: "For what?"
Ezra: "For when I hit you this morning in your eye by mistake when I was trying to grab your scarf away? And then when you cried I ran off and didn't even say I'm sorry."
Araela, putting down her book, looking at him warmly: "Oh, thanks for that Ezra. Grabbing is pretty annoying you know, and it did hurt. But I'm over it now."
Ezra, reaching out towards her face: "Did your eye get hurted when I did that?"
Araela, showing him: "Just a little scratch, see? I think it's healing, right?"
Ezra: "Oh. Good. Sorry I did that."
Araela picks up her book again, starts to read. Ezra crosses his arms over his chest, chin down, frowning again: "But I'm still feeling like you not forgived me."
Araela, turning towards him, her voice softer now: "Ezra, look in my eyes: I forgive you, I forgive you! I love you. Can you feel that?"
Ezra, opening, his voice clearing, stronger: "Yes, I can feel that. I forgive me too. I love you too."
Araela, tenderly: "Want me to read to you?"
Ezra: "No thanks! I just wanted you to forgive me!" hopping down from the couch and running off...
Forgiveness~ this gift of love we give one another, even when it's a stretch for us, even when a wound, inflicted, has not yet healed.
Not just the words, but the actions, the gestures and extensions of forgiveness: what a power this is we have~ to forgive, to forgive. What a healing grace it brings.
Self-forgiveness: sometimes the biggest stretch of all. To allow the heart to widen to include that which feels un-forgiveable within us. Those choices, those failures, those words we said, those behaviors, those mistakes, those hatreds. What a courageous risk: to open wider, both hands to the heart. To forgive and be forgiven.
To forgive Life for all the challenges it brings. And be forgiven, as Life, as Love~ for all our shortcomings and limitations. All the ways we are still learning how to walk with grace in this world. <3