I’m writing to you on behalf of all of us who find ourselves currently inside a chrysalis moment of life transformation. Yet unfound, unwound and unwinding still; immensely quiet and purely imaginal, startlingly un-nameable and unknowable.
From the outside it looks like I’m consumed by the busy-ness of mundane human life and loving, attending to the million details of service and responsibility that we humans of privilege endlessly juggle: ushering the children off to school, returning phone calls and texts and emails, navigating traffic, putting on and taking off the many "hats" of roles we play, getting dressed and undressed again, washing the face and teeth again, navigating sibling squabbles, house-cleaning, clothes-washing and bed-making, shopping for groceries and preparing the meals, offering cuddles, planting kisses and singing lullabies, asking for and telling the deepest truth, generating the money and paying the bills.
But inside all this? Underneath the human skin of appearances, the daily grace and grind of relationship, the pulse of embodied existence? Let me tell you: my very soul is twisting and turning, my heart stretching and churning, my truest prayers unknowably unfurling!
Dear World, I am busy growing the fruits I will bear one day soon for you to taste.
I am busy growing myself up a bit more; attending to the liberation of shadows and fixations and core imprints of messy untruths; polishing this precious heart through which God longs to shine! As I unearth the gems worthy of your partaking, these revelations promise to be made good use of.
And the truth is, I find YOU here, Dear World, inside the privacy and intimacy of my undoing.
It is WITH YOU I am in such divine partnership, through all the changing seasons of our relating. I am devoted to my own liberation in my devotion to YOU, to your awakening, your homecoming; to the tender possibility of peace for all beings.
I can only say YES to myself like this because of the depth of my YES to you.
Your careful listening invites my translation; your spacious trust invites my courage; your fearless transparency inspires my own; your brave authenticity guides the way.
Your brokenness breaks open my heart, brings me to my knees, to death, to ash, while your wholeness reminds me of the Truth~ helps me rise once again from the flames, spread and re-spread my wings~ as only the fullness of emptiness can.
So thank you, Dear World. Thank you on behalf of all of us who are in the Chrysalis stage of growing and healing ourselves up a bit more so as to give ourselves ever-more fully to you!
Thank you for being. Thank you for listening.
Thank you for showing up and shining as you are.
Thank you for being quiet and discerning and waiting for all that must be waited for.
Thank you for living out this journey of our hearts in just exactly the way we each are, and celebrating one another as we celebrate ourselves.
All in Love, in Grace, in this Generously Unfathomable Mystery,